One Foot Forward, One Foot Scared

I woke up with the floor on my face Old tape deck hissin’ in my brain
Half a bottle by the sink, half a prayer
And a dog lookin’ at me like he knew I’d been there
My hands shook like a bad train track
Mama’s number on a wrinkled scrap
I let it ring, then I let it go
Same old lie, same old road

Pre-Chorus 1

But I heard that voice in the screen door slam
You can still come home if you can
So I stood in the yard with the winter bare
One foot forward, one foot scared

Chorus

I’m still here, I’m still here
With the ashes in my boots, I’m still here
I lost my name, I lost my years
But I’m still here, I’m still here
(Still here)

Verse 2

First week sober felt like a knife
Every clock in the house got loud at night
I’d count the cracks in the kitchen tile
Just to make it through another mile
Then I met a man with a scarred-up grin
Said, “Son, you don’t get clean by just winnin’”
You get clean by crawlin’ back again
By tellin’ the truth to your closest friend

Pre-Chorus 2

So I spoke my shame in a folding chair
Hands in my lap, tears in the air
And for the first time, when I looked around
I didn’t feel so bound

Chorus

I’m still here, I’m still here
With the ashes in my boots, I’m still here
I lost my name, I lost my years
But I’m still here, I’m still here
(Still here)

Bridge

If I go back, I go back alone
If I stay, I learn how to call this home
There’s a scar where the storm came through
And it made a door in me for you

Final Chorus

I’m still here, I’m still here
With the ashes in my boots, I’m still here
I lost my name, I lost my years
But I’m still here, I’m still here
I’m still here, I’m still here
From the bottom up, I can feel it clear
The dark was real, but the dawn is near
And I’m still here, I’m still here
(Still here)

About the Song

“One Foot Forward, One Foot Scared” is a deeply personal song about the fear, pain, and uncertainty that can accompany recovery. It tells the story of someone caught between the life they have known and the difficult decision to move forward.

The song captures a moment when courage doesn’t mean being free from fear—it means taking the next step even while part of you is still afraid.

At its heart, the song is about hope, resilience, and the courage to begin again.

About the Music

This song was created through Addict Confession Charity as part of our mission to help musicians and artists use music and creative expression as part of their recovery journey.